bahZ. ok not only my body but my mind refuses to listen to me! i'd thought my mind is more mouldable :( today i received back h3. i did well for h3! :) but as i flipped thru the exam paper i realized that i forgot almost everything le -.- all the formulas, how to apply them, and the qualitative stuff... everything just slipped out even though i told my mind to lock it in my memory so that i won't have such a steep slope to climb for a's!! ugh. now it's like having to remug everything all over again.
lolz i just connected the ideas of platonic realm with lasic action today as i was thinking abt how disobedient my mind was. i mean... h3 isn't the most easy subject, to understate things a little. but the few days before my h3... it's like i managed to reach an excited state and somehow assimilated all the info needed for the exam. and then during the paper... wow it's like could access the higher levels of reasoning and :) flashes of insight lead to powerful calculations and stuffZ. but it's like... the excited state is only metastable and then now :( i look at my exam paper and i don't know how to get the answers again. lost access to the realm of higher order thinking le :(
oh well. i think the analogy sucks. strange how i always think in terms of analogies and metaphors. it may be easier to understand, but it's... misleading.
i must come up with a name one day for the periods of intense rush of emotions/ideas that occur from time to time. these short bursts are like unadulterated internal energy that change the flow of my identity. lolz i think i can keep track of most of them cos they always inspire me to diary... such an interesting process.
i always have a tendency to confine things to a 2D cartesian model... but as i said, such models mislead me a lot. so it's like... i create smth to help me understand, but it ends up tricking me. so uh -.- ok. delude myself.
oh well. great minds aren't meant to be caged by the prison walls of reality :) right jas?
Name: Foo Guo Zhong Melvyn
Age: 19+
Affiliations: MSHS (Pri), Rosyth, RI, RJC, SFX (LoG)
Bday: 14th Nov
Email: mel_protoss@hotmail.com
bahZ. ok not only my body but my mind refuses to listen to me! i'd thought my mind is more mouldable :( today i received back h3. i did well for h3! :) but as i flipped thru the exam paper i realized that i forgot almost everything le -.- all the formulas, how to apply them, and the qualitative stuff... everything just slipped out even though i told my mind to lock it in my memory so that i won't have such a steep slope to climb for a's!! ugh. now it's like having to remug everything all over again.
lolz i just connected the ideas of platonic realm with lasic action today as i was thinking abt how disobedient my mind was. i mean... h3 isn't the most easy subject, to understate things a little. but the few days before my h3... it's like i managed to reach an excited state and somehow assimilated all the info needed for the exam. and then during the paper... wow it's like could access the higher levels of reasoning and :) flashes of insight lead to powerful calculations and stuffZ. but it's like... the excited state is only metastable and then now :( i look at my exam paper and i don't know how to get the answers again. lost access to the realm of higher order thinking le :(
oh well. i think the analogy sucks. strange how i always think in terms of analogies and metaphors. it may be easier to understand, but it's... misleading.
i must come up with a name one day for the periods of intense rush of emotions/ideas that occur from time to time. these short bursts are like unadulterated internal energy that change the flow of my identity. lolz i think i can keep track of most of them cos they always inspire me to diary... such an interesting process.
i always have a tendency to confine things to a 2D cartesian model... but as i said, such models mislead me a lot. so it's like... i create smth to help me understand, but it ends up tricking me. so uh -.- ok. delude myself.
oh well. great minds aren't meant to be caged by the prison walls of reality :) right jas?